I'll never forget that moment when I held Kayley for the first time. There was so much anticipation. I had to have an emergency c-section with her so they whisked her away and it was a little while before I actually got the opportunity to hold her.
I remember looking at her and thinking that I had never loved anything to that capacity and yet, I was really just meeting her for the first time. As I held her and studied everything about her, my mind immediately went to my mother. It was interesting and I was caught a little off guard. Lord, why am I thinking about my mom right now?
But I began to realize that the way that I looked at Kayley and the immediate love that I had for her that was completely overwhelming every part of who I was, was the same way that my mom felt about me so many years ago. From that moment on, I really looked at my mom in a completely different light.
I think we have this tendency as children to look at our parents as not really being human. They're parents. But that day, I saw my mom as a real mom, having her own feelings. I realized that day how much she must really love me. I always have felt loved. I had an amazing childhood. But I mean, really knew how much I was loved. Because I had no gauge before. I had never felt that kind of love for someone so I didn't even know it existed.
I changed that day. I look at my mom now and I see the way she looks at me differently. I see love in her eyes that I never knew to even see before. I get her. Like I never got her before.
So I want to dedicate this blog post to her. To the amazing woman that she is.
I had a thought about this the other day. What could I say to my mom on Mother's Day to let her know all the things that I think about her? And then I thought - "I'll blog all the things about her (that I can think of on the spot) that I am thankful for.
So here we go...
I remember looking at her and thinking that I had never loved anything to that capacity and yet, I was really just meeting her for the first time. As I held her and studied everything about her, my mind immediately went to my mother. It was interesting and I was caught a little off guard. Lord, why am I thinking about my mom right now?
But I began to realize that the way that I looked at Kayley and the immediate love that I had for her that was completely overwhelming every part of who I was, was the same way that my mom felt about me so many years ago. From that moment on, I really looked at my mom in a completely different light.
I think we have this tendency as children to look at our parents as not really being human. They're parents. But that day, I saw my mom as a real mom, having her own feelings. I realized that day how much she must really love me. I always have felt loved. I had an amazing childhood. But I mean, really knew how much I was loved. Because I had no gauge before. I had never felt that kind of love for someone so I didn't even know it existed.
I changed that day. I look at my mom now and I see the way she looks at me differently. I see love in her eyes that I never knew to even see before. I get her. Like I never got her before.
So I want to dedicate this blog post to her. To the amazing woman that she is.
I had a thought about this the other day. What could I say to my mom on Mother's Day to let her know all the things that I think about her? And then I thought - "I'll blog all the things about her (that I can think of on the spot) that I am thankful for.
So here we go...
I am thankful most of all that my mom chose life. I am here because of her and am so thankful to her for that.
I am thankful that my mom (and dad but this isn't Father's Day so he is going to be left out of this post) saw fit that I have my own relationship with the Lord and set that foundation at an early age.
I am thankful that my mom loved the things that I loved and was involved in the things I was involved in. I model how I raise Kayley by that example.
I am thankful that my mom is so much fun. That woman is the life of the party. And she coincidentally is always the one throwing them.
I am thankful that my mom loved the things that I loved and was involved in the things I was involved in. I model how I raise Kayley by that example.
I am thankful that my mom is so much fun. That woman is the life of the party. And she coincidentally is always the one throwing them.
I am thankful that my mom has such a servant heart. I have never seen someone so compassionate and giving of themselves.
I am thankful that my mom loves my family as much as she does. She truly loves Jarrod like he was her own. And she adores Kayley so much. She will call in the mornings just to hear her voice sometimes.
I am thankful that my mom is funny. One of my favorite things to do is watch my husband laugh at my mom's humor. It brings such joy to my heart. If I am being real - her timing can be off at times in joke telling. She isn't the best joke teller. But she is naturally funny. When she isn't trying, she is naturally so witty.
I am thankful that my mom has a heart for the things that God has a heart for. I blesses me when I tell her a story about someone going through hard times that she doesn't even maybe know that well and she will burst into tears asking if there is anything she can do.
I am thankful that my mom will cut a check in a moment's notice so a kid can go to camp that couldn't otherwise afford to go.
I am thankful that my mom insists that Kayley has a new outfit for special events in her life and will take her or go with us. She did that with us girls growing up too. It isn't about the material aspect of it. It's about the fact that she always knows how to make special things and events special.
I am thankful that my mom looked at me the day that I stood in front of my parents to tell them I was pregnant and said, "A baby is a blessing from God and we aren't going to be sad about this."
I am thankful that my mom has always made family so important. She has showed us how to truly honor and respect your parents and how important making time for family is.
I am thankful that my mom always made our house a safe and fun place for me and my friends when I was growing up. She would make us food and hang out with us. She cared about my friends and had a place in their lives also. And still does.
I am thankful that my mom will call my husband out of the blue to check on him or offer to cook him his favorite dinner. (he doesn't get a lot of that at home...)
I am thankful that my mom has such a great work ethic. She has always worked hard our entire lives and set that example for us.
I am thankful that my mom has truly learned to lean on the Lord. Losing my grandfather was so hard...and still is. But she finds her strength from the Lord. It's inspiring.
I am thankful that my mom has cooked with Kayley since she was a little girl. Kayley's love for cooking and desire to go to culinary school is because of her and that influence.
I am thankful that my mom created a room at her home for Kayley so that she would feel that she had her own place there.
I am thankful that my mom loves my family as much as she does. She truly loves Jarrod like he was her own. And she adores Kayley so much. She will call in the mornings just to hear her voice sometimes.
I am thankful that my mom is funny. One of my favorite things to do is watch my husband laugh at my mom's humor. It brings such joy to my heart. If I am being real - her timing can be off at times in joke telling. She isn't the best joke teller. But she is naturally funny. When she isn't trying, she is naturally so witty.
I am thankful that my mom has a heart for the things that God has a heart for. I blesses me when I tell her a story about someone going through hard times that she doesn't even maybe know that well and she will burst into tears asking if there is anything she can do.
I am thankful that my mom will cut a check in a moment's notice so a kid can go to camp that couldn't otherwise afford to go.
I am thankful that my mom insists that Kayley has a new outfit for special events in her life and will take her or go with us. She did that with us girls growing up too. It isn't about the material aspect of it. It's about the fact that she always knows how to make special things and events special.
I am thankful that my mom looked at me the day that I stood in front of my parents to tell them I was pregnant and said, "A baby is a blessing from God and we aren't going to be sad about this."
I am thankful that my mom has always made family so important. She has showed us how to truly honor and respect your parents and how important making time for family is.
I am thankful that my mom always made our house a safe and fun place for me and my friends when I was growing up. She would make us food and hang out with us. She cared about my friends and had a place in their lives also. And still does.
I am thankful that my mom will call my husband out of the blue to check on him or offer to cook him his favorite dinner. (he doesn't get a lot of that at home...)
I am thankful that my mom has such a great work ethic. She has always worked hard our entire lives and set that example for us.
I am thankful that my mom has truly learned to lean on the Lord. Losing my grandfather was so hard...and still is. But she finds her strength from the Lord. It's inspiring.
I am thankful that my mom has cooked with Kayley since she was a little girl. Kayley's love for cooking and desire to go to culinary school is because of her and that influence.
I am thankful that my mom created a room at her home for Kayley so that she would feel that she had her own place there.
I am thankful that my mom has such a dynamic personality. People are drawn to her. She is so full of life. Vibrant.
I am thankful that my mom has always told me how special I am to her. Not to boost my ego but because I have always felt loved and accepted.
I am so thankful to God that He chose her for me. And me for her. I am a better person because of her influence in my life. I see that in choices that I make sometimes that may not come natural to me but I can remember similar choices she made and the impact it had on people. That's how you change the world. My mom is a world changer. And I am honored to be her daughter!
I love you, Mom!
I am thankful that my mom has always told me how special I am to her. Not to boost my ego but because I have always felt loved and accepted.
I am so thankful to God that He chose her for me. And me for her. I am a better person because of her influence in my life. I see that in choices that I make sometimes that may not come natural to me but I can remember similar choices she made and the impact it had on people. That's how you change the world. My mom is a world changer. And I am honored to be her daughter!
I love you, Mom!
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