You know when you
have those times with the Lord where He speaks to you in a way that you know is
something you are supposed to share? I
had one of those sessions with the Lord last night.
I love the gentle nudges of God. I love that He corrects us in a way that is never harsh or condemning, but rather so loving and kind.
I was lying in bed having my nightly conversation
with God and I was thanking Him for always being there by my side. Thanking Him that I’ve never had to feel
alone during this transition in my life because I always felt His comforting
arms. Even when I was sad. I love the gentle nudges of God. I love that He corrects us in a way that is never harsh or condemning, but rather so loving and kind.
As I was thanking Him, He spoke to my heart and said, “but you haven’t trusted Me.”
It was sobering. Because it was true. I hadn’t trusted Him. Not completely. I said all the right things. “He is going to work this for my good…My latter will be greater…I know He has big plans for me…” But the truth is, I was saying those things trying to convince myself that it was true. I knew in the long run that I was going to be okay but I wasn’t trusting Him with each moment, each situation, each day. He then just started to minister to my heart.
He showed me how I was like Peter. I had seen with my own eyes what was possible and would take a few steps but then doubt would set in and before I knew it, the water was at my chin and I was flailing and begging to be rescued.
Many days, I had chosen turmoil and strife over peace and comfort.
Either way, God would be there with me. I could walk above my situation with Him in His peace and allow Him to carry my burdens for me and trust where He was taking me or I could stay in the turbulent waters and wear myself out trying to make it on my own, down where my circumstances controlled me and eventually have to beg Him to pull me out of it.
God wants to show us that He has equipped us with everything we need to face whatever is in front of us but we have to trust Him. It’s so easy to say that we trust Him when life is great. But when everything falls apart and life is unfair, it’s not always as easy to live it out.
As I go into Easter weekend, I am that much more grateful for that torn veil. I am so thankful that I have a Savior and Comforter and Best Friend and Teacher and Lord to walk with me.
Happy Easter, you guys! He is Risen!
Wow, this put tears in my eyes as I experienced something very similar the other night. Except, he told me I was not fully believing in myself. He told me he is always here with me and pushing me into greatness but I wasn't fully believing that myself. It is profound to me how he speaks to us and gives us the fire we need in our hearts to just believe and trust in him, he will take us where we need to be. Thanks for sharing!!
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